Hello???

So clearly I am not what you would call a blogger. A blogger after all writes updates, has comments, um blogs...
If any of you are still visiting THANK YOU - you clearly have more faith in me than I deserve! I thought I would touch base as I know this is a means of getting info for some and I appreciate that. I apologise that I went radio silent for a while.

I always contended that this was a means to get info out and post thoughts now and then. I have not wanted to use this as a gripe and complaint site. While so many 'good' things have been going on I have also been in a funk and have not had the energy to try and convey or share many of my observations. Thank you for your patience and understanding. Getting back into 'real' life has been more of a challenge than I ever anticipated and in some ways one of the hardest things about this process.

I had 23 days of radiation - it took up the month of Aug. Fatigue and monotony were the two big side effects. Managed to sneak away for a couple of days with the family and that was perfect.

Back to school was a gong show - isn't it for every one! But all settled in now. We actually just returned from 10 days away in Mexico - a well deserved family vacation. And now this Monday morning i am looking at my weeks schedule.  Blood work, Ultrasound, CT. Next week I meet with my amazing Dr. and we confirm that all this zapping and poking and IV'ing has worked.

Yes I am nervous. Scared. But also looking forward of getting out of this limbo. I am tired of fitting my life in around cancer. It is time for me to fit the cancer in around my life.

With my treatment done there are so so many people I owe thanks to. That will come. I have to learn to be patient with myself too and give myself a break. Besides for all the help and love and good thoughts and encouragements I have received 'thank you' just does not seem to cut.

One of the silver linings of this process is learning the true breadth of our ability to give, to share, to love. It has been a humbling and enlightening experience. That is truly the most wonderful gift all of you have given me.

Fingers crossed for my results next week. I promise I won't make you wait as long.