Round Two

I have been struggling with what to write here today... While I remain positive and optimistic about treatment, recovery and my eventual return to health I have to admit the last few days has taken the stuffing out of me a bit. The procedure itself on Wed, the 15th was pretty standard, and the first few days went by pretty well. I got the same side effects as last time, on about the same schedule. The problem has been the 'aftermath'. It has been a lot harder to get myself back to a place of relative normalcy. Everything has taken a bit longer. I am having to rest more, I am dealing with side effects for a longer time. I suppose it is to be expected as chemo and the effects it has on ones body are cumulative I just had a harder time dealing with it this round and I don't necessarily mean physically. Perhaps it has been because I was so on auto pilot with round one. Perhaps the reality of my situation has settled and this is my new normal for a while, either way the last few days were frustrating. I think discombobulated is a good word for. My mind would be busy wanting to do things but my body would not have the energy or I would be restless, frustrated about sitting around but I could not get my brain to work to put two and two together. Finally today a week and a day after round two I am getting some clarity and some sense of feeling a bit more balanced. It could not have come soon enough!

Thanks for Moms & Moms In Laws, visits (especially Sophia), cards, notes from old friends, dinners, rides and emails. Thanks for supporting my family and cheering loud - Go Eagles! Thanks for words of encouragement, prayers, thoughts, good vibes and LOVE.